As Maddie gets older and more independent I find myself with time to reflect on what has happened in my life and where I am going. Lately I've been doing a lot of that and I've come to a realization that I have been denying for years. . . I am a housewife.
Sure, I have my two businesses and I like the extra income they bring. But almost as much, I like being able to fill in that survey oval that says "self-employed" rather than unemployed, stay-at-home mom or what have you.
And I also homeschool, which puts a spin on things, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm here -- at home -- pretty much all day every day. (24-7 for you youngsters)
So what does that say about me, or in a broader sense society, when being a stay at home mom is something to hide? And why would I even want to? I love being with Maddie (I already fear the day she goes off to college -- yes I clearly have issues) and I love baking and cooking. I love being the family nutritionist and keeping things running. I love not having to go in to the office (but I miss it too -- especially being around other adults) and I like that I can work when I want and let things slow down when I need that.
I will say that I don't like cleaning -- I have a service for that. But I do like tidying up and doing spot cleaning -- I like a clean sink, I'll tell ya!
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I have it pretty good -- whatever you want to call me. I'm learning to enjoy myself in this roll and I really do cherish my days with Maddie. I also know that this won't last forever. As I said, Maddie is growing up and one day she will leave (god, that's difficult for me to write) and I will move on to the next phase of my life (which is exciting).
I always wanted to be an English Lit professor. . .