First of all, thank you for all the wonderful comments! I know there are a lot of other people out there who go through this too and sometimes it helps to hear that you are not alone.
The walk helped. Exercise, sunshine -- both good for combating depression.
Some of you have asked why I don't take medication and others are probably wondering. I'm very anti-drug. My mom is the same way, so maybe I get that from her. I don't know. But I went to a psychologist during a very bad time in my life and he taught me alternative ways to deal with the depression.
First of all I exercise. 5 days a week for about 30 minutes a day on the elliptical machine. (This has had the added benefit of helping me to keep off most of the 50 lbs I lost a few years ago!) Exercise is good. And while I did exercise yesterday morning, sometimes it just isn't enough.
I also learned to meditate -- well, I'll call it that for lack of a better word. He gave me lots of relaxation tapes to listen to. To this day I still try to start my day by calmly laying in my bed and thinking about the upcoming day. Which brings me to my next coping mechanism. . .
Routines! Routines are key for me. I have a loose schedule that I stick to pretty much every day. You could call me a planner. I like to know what will be happening each day before I get out of bed. Ask Pete, he's probably sick of hearing me say "What's the plan." But it works for me.
So that's that. I'm coping. It's a never ending battle, but I'll continue to fight it.